what's wrong with me?

It is supposed to be a season of fun, food and plenty of rest. But i feel stressed for some reasons.

Partly because I know i have got to make a major decision about my further studies. I have to give my MBA course though I have been selected for the course, because it is too costly for me. It's sad but I need to know my limitation.

I also feel sad and upset because this CNY reminds me of beautiful memories of last year's CNY with my ex-bf, especially on the route to and fro Sembawang and Hougang. Really very sad, feel like crying on my way back from Sembawang. Maybe i am very silly. I should have just forget about him. But it is really not easy to forget someone when you have put in so much of your feelings. I have been suppressing and suppressing my feelings. I am bursting. I think i have to really let go, and get on with my life. Even the fortune cookie tells me this!

I am also stressed because i have got a 7.30am on coming wed to all the senior management of my organisation. If i have knew that it is the first day of work after CNY, i wouldn't have agreed to it! Sotong me. So stressed and sighz to need to prepare for presentation during CNY. Btw, part of last year's CNY was spent preparing for GMAT. Alemak, when can i have a truly restful CNY? Arghh...

Okie lah, enough of sad stuff.

You know something, there is something different about this CNY. I can feel that the family is more close-knitted now after my dad's accident especially in terms of my mum's attitude towards dad's side aunties and uncles. I am especially thankful to my dad's side of uncles and aunties for their kind help during my dad's accident. They have helped a lot.

I hope this year will be a fulfilling and relaxing year for me. And certainly hopes for a relaxed 2007's CNY!